Silence enshrouds the remembrance that is feasting on my endless pain
My pain the scorching sun has raised from the depth of my withered heart
Is it an illusion made up by my mind
(Or should) I face the fact that the past is alive
This must be an illusion made up by my mind, I’m blind
Death that once belonged to the dream is now alive and haunts me
A wound carved in me which time won’t heal, I know I will never be relieved
The memory I had to conceal inside
Tragedy that once belonged to the past now wakes up
The memory I had to conceal inside now revealed
A life my innocence had to prey
Lost and forgotten in a frozen memory
I’m guilty because I’m alive
I’m alive, I’m alive
An innocence my malice had to prey
Lost and forgotten in a frozen memory
Am I guilty? Am I to be judged?
I’m the one
Yes, I am, Yes, I am, Yes, I am
I’m the one to be damned forever
Help me dream in this silence forever
Though my soul is not to be saved, never ever, nor are theirs
Help me dream in the heat of the sun forever
Though my soul will never be saved, never
Oh my lord, may my curse damn them to hell
Forever to burn into the flame I once fell
Just let them know of the price to pay
Forever to rot in the seas of decay
Their intention was evil but mine was not
O God do you hear me or was it your will
I am so evil but who is not
God is so evil if it was his will
When sanity died, the malice was born
A life to be saved and a life that was saved
My sin which I should have known
My sin which I thought I had buried
Buried in the past forgotten, forever
This song hits the words Summer Funeral so well. That feeling of slight joy in the brass section mixed with the depression of the funeral march.
Such a beautiful combination.